I’m drowning in a fear of never being un-stuck
To never know the feeling of creating emotion again
To never touch another’s heart again
I’m coming down with a sickness I can’t heal on my own
If I could only find someone to heal it….
But it seems as if they’ve all run away …
Run away with the fear of catching my sickness
If only someone would dare to come and touch my wounds to heal me.

I’m drowning in the fear of never being un-stuck
To never finish another poem again
To hate everything I make
Not knowing who I am anymore kills me
What have I become when I can’t define who I am anymore
When I’ve been lost in “you’re just like me” and “we’re so alike”
And all I want to be is anything but like you
But everyone swarms around me in similarities
If only I could find myself in all this mess and break away on my wings and fly!

And I’m drowning in the fear of never being un-stuck
To never be able to write on paper again
To never dream again
When my friends all leave what will I have left
When there’s no one left to talk to or laugh with
And I’ve been rejected for a guy named vlad in Switzerland
There’s no one to confide in and all I have is myself
As if everyone’s found someone better
If only I could find someone willing to forsake all to be with only me…

If only I could over come my fear of never being un-stuck